The Final Mission: Ask God to “forgive them for they know not what they do.”

“I(i) held her tight and felt her heart breaking. With burning love, i whispered in her ear,

“It’s okay, my love, i’m here. Let go for now, goodbye my dear. I vow to breath life into you someday. But for tonight, we must part ways.”

***To those in hiding, I see you. Step into the Light.
There is no shame!
To the ones forced to stay silent, I hear you. SPEAK.
There is no shame!

The truth will set you free.

Not in the way you want, but in the way you need.
There is no shame!

It is your story, your silent battle, your tears and fears. Your pain.
Only God can JudGe.
Plan it out if you must — BE THAT WITCH!
You are the mastermind of your own life. You decide what controls you. Submission does not suppress; it is meant to empower you. No one gets a veto over your life. You are created in the image of the Alpha α and Ωmega ω.

Ask yourself: do you really value what the masses value? If being “high value” takes you away from inner peace and love (agape), you shouldn’t value it. That is not the goal.
You are better than that.

If you are unable to share your truth with at least one trusted friend, you need to run. Your struggles shouldn’t have to be a secret; they are meant to be private.
If you can’t find a single person who can see the good in your relationship with your partner, especially when you haven’t even shared your real struggle, stop trying to convince the world.
Stop trying to convince yourself.
Walk away. Run.

In my case, I couldn’t even be completely honest with my doctors. I wasn’t allowed to speak to priests; I had to justify it by saying I was speaking in confession. I am still in the process of rehabilitating my mind. That doesn’t mean you should look at my story timeline loop and think to yourself, ‘Oh, it’s not that bad for me. I am lucky.’
That is the wrong message!!!
You shouldn’t be able to relate at all — is it really empathy, or are you projecting and showing sympathy?

It doesn’t matter what the influencers say. X says, fuck it. Find different influencers; there are many out there. You decide who influences you and who doesn’t.
There are many pills out there, and I’m sure society will evolve many more. Not one pill is right or wrong. The extreme of anything is bad. Your relationship shouldn’t be a never-ending series of tests.

“love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. love never fails…”

If anyone — and I mean ANYONE — uses a Holy text to justify their bad behaviour and evade accountability, hold up a mirror and RUN FASTER!!!

If your self-esteem is the problem, ask yourself whether you are in the right environment to build it back up in the first place. Self-esteem is not positive affirmations and fighting negative self-talk; it is the respect you choose to give yourself.
Are you Queen in your own life?
Are you King?
Is that what a Queen or King tolerates?
Is it really unconditional love, or are you now caught in a cycle of enabling self-destruction?
Walk away. Run.
Grant yourself the grace of unconditional self-love.
Agape.
That is the most loving thing you can do — not just for yourself and the people who truly love you; it is also the most loving thing you can do even for those trying to crush your soul (despite their expressed intention).

You are a person of value and worth. Yes, you are.
Who doesn’t have a past? Who doesn’t have baggage? Who doesn’t make mistakes?
It doesn’t matter what the narrative seems like. Yes, life may have handed you a terrible hand.
The chessboard is confusing and moves like the waves; that does not dictate your worth.
You are beautiful, flaws and all. You are resilient for choosing to walk away and run.
You are resilient for leaving.

I know it is hard to hear the one you love most sit and ask whether you ever loved them at all (that is called guilt-tripping), when all you feel is nothing but love. They know it; you know it. Do not let it sway your decision!
A person who truly loves you will never make you feel guilty for walking away, especially when you communicate that the situation is harming you and not helping.
They won’t care about how much they ‘need you’; they will let you go with grace and kindness.
There will be no blackmail, emotional or otherwise.
They will not hit you where it hurts to trap you.

Also, not sure who needs to see this, but if someone says that seeing you cry turns them on while you are in the middle of expressing the hurt you feel or later, there is something fundamentally wrong with them.
Observe, observe, and observe.
Forgive from afar. Do not forget.
But first……..RUN!!!!

“…But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me……..”

Their first mistake was misidentifying the pieces eniterly.
iIX am Queen.
I am, that i am.
Yes X am.

Were they even a pawn?
Remember 8.
Many will feed you, Most won’t even touch you,
only one thing is needed from you,
SPEAK!!!

No one is a pawn.
just Another 8, we can’t explain fate.

You are Queen, you are King.
Masculine & Feminine.
you are, that You are.
Every curse may come true, but karma answers you.
Bow down to no one but God in every situation;
α DECISIΩN.

We saved our children, some before they were born-won.
Black or White,
Queen or King,
Healing is healing, repeating, never ending.

I am, that i am.
Yes X am.

“……..For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.”

The begining and the end…

α ♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️ Ω

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” [Jeremiah 29:11]

නැව ගිලුනත් බෑන් චූන්

Kind regards,
Minoli Christeen x

Checkmate
My family, friends and the unknown angels win this round.
X am breathing life back into my beautiful mind.
love is here.